My Word of the Year
I recently joined the Inspiring Moms Network. One of our first tasks was to come up with a word and focus for the year. I struggled with this all month. What word should I choose? What theme do I want this year to have? What do I want to teach my children this year through my words and actions?
We were given a worksheet to come up with our word that was provided by Christine Kane. You can download your own copy for free here. I worked through the questions and still struggled to come up with a word. The word I had worked through was Enough. I have a hard time being enough… I want to be more. I want to be the perfect mom, perfect wife, perfect accountant, perfect scrapbooker… but, my best is enough and that is a lesson I need to work on.
I tossed “enough” around and decided against it. I set the thought aside and figured it would come to me sooner or later.
I happened to be talking to a very very good friend of mine and he said something about how proud he was of me going back to school for my MBA while juggling a full-time job and twins at home. I blew him off and shot down his compliment.
He responded to me, “What happened to you? You used to have so much confidence and believed in yourself.”
I kinda stuttered and thought for a second. What did happen to me? I used to like what I saw in the mirror. I used to look people in the eye and take on the world. I used to believe in myself.
I had kids. I haven’t lost the weight of being pregnant with twins. I hate looking at myself in the mirror. I hate what I see. I feel like I have very few friends. I have even less that I trust.
I am smart. I am a successful accountant. I am working on my MBA. I have a wonderful husband, two beautiful kids. I am a great scrapbooker and card maker. I have a handful of great friends that I would trust my kids’ lives with. I’m doing good. There is no reason to be the way I am… I should be a confident about myself and my life.
I don’t want my kids to grow up without confidence, like I did.
So, my word for 2013…
What’s yours?
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This is a beautiful post Julia…and very inspiring. So many moms can relate. You are fabulous and exactly where you need to be right, in the this exact moment. Let your bright light shine my friend.
Stacey
Thanks for sharing your thoughts and feelings about coming up with your word of the year. CONFIDENCE is definitely something I think all moms struggle to maintain. Kids have a way of making us see our weaknesses as we try to help them grow up to be great people. I struggled with my word too. I think it is amazing that you are pursuing your Master’s while working and raising a family! You are teaching your children that to value education and knowledge. You are teaching them how important it is to learn a skill to support themselves and their families! You should feel great about the example you are setting for your children. I think you are amazing and I don’t even know you…yet!
Thanks Stacey!
Thanks Geri!